it is suddenly cold, very cold here in santiago de chile and i seek refuge.  refuge from responsibility in order to do what i really like. i spent most of the day putting together a fabric pillow in order to lighten things up here in this barren apartment.  somehow the reds and oranges were the right colors amid the impending gloom of winter, a recurring season which i have yet to decipher.  i am not particularly drawn to winter, those early nights, darkness more than light and cold.  so imbuing my life with color.  i am so happy with the results of this spontaneous, freehand applique pillow, all elements speaking of my will.for light. it is the first element of change and future i have created fully since my mother left me.